Just Listen.






Heh.




That's all I have to say. All in song.




If that's how it's going to be.



Heh.





Peace out.

Meh.

That's all I wanna say today.



Goodnight.

Thank yous are due to everyone who had wished, hung out & given me gifts for my birthday~!

(by order of when they had wished. Or at least I try to remember! XD)


- trastoink (Sticky Nao. you're the first one to wish me yeaaaah!!)
- ahsie
- Hemroy
- Cousin Nikos from Brunei
- Tirmidzi
- Tae (bestie whom I haven't talked to in yonks. That e-card cracked me up! <3)
- Jocelyn (Thanks for the e-card! It was lovely! =D)
- Amenat
- Glenn (who got to witness my passing from 19 to 20 & I just knew him just 5 minutes before that & he was trying to flirt. Turned him down flat.)
- Skyler (thing you did was just aweeesome man! :D)
- Brittany
- Rukana
- Aida (my brother Gaddafi's girlfriend. She's my wee sister! =D)
- hUnñEy§u€k£e§: D* (the only Friendster greeting XD)
- Meredith
- Twinnie yuae
- My boyfriend David (you made my day, the whole of my day by that single call, sweeting. 愛してる. (L)(K))
- Marshella
- Melphanie
- Victoria
- Kirsty
- Sagel & fiancee Esmerel, his family & students in Australia
- Bay & Kade who happened to be at the same place at the same time
- Tsudane
- Barbie
- Laray
- anychan (Ani)
- Cafe
- Ferinna
- Doe
- Peer Metze
- Jocelyn L (same birthday as me!!)
- Mahadi (thanks for the whole song you made! =D)
- Yusri
- Wesley
- Cousin Isa (I like to throw the Jesus joke on him 'cos Isa = Jesus :D)
- Yussof
- Cousin Norlin (thanks for the card. IT HAS MY PIC & KITTIES ON EETT!!!!!)
- Ninz
- STJH Sharmaine (aww I miss her & our cosplay days)
- Ridzuan
- Natasha my brother's Saddam's girlfriend (think she was trying to get on the good side of me by calling me sister haha)
- Maddy
- Zai
- Selina
- Moku
- Ryan
- Hjah
- Shawn (he has the same birthday as ME!! & we're both CRAAZY!!! :D)
- Steeven
- Vidar (BIDABIDA!!! Haha everytime I say his name I'm reminded by B-daman the anime XD)
- Visa
- Nicky (yey this boy is fab. He was there for me when I was kicked down the drain during the lied days 'cos I was there for him before)
- Jasper (This dude is HILARIOUS. He's my Sec sch mate!)
- Mark (this one took me aback. But pleasant =))
- Amin (he surprised me by telling me he looks up to me. Wow.)
- Farhanah
- Pattie
- Bektaş
- Lindsay
- Charles
- Lee
- Jahdiel (You always make my day Babes! <3s!)
- Stacey (I've been talking to this dude for months & all the while I had thought he was a girl until last 2 weeks ^__^||)
- Hayley
- Jay
- Jack
- Meghan
- Urian & 8 of the Bike Gang (thanks for the awesome theme park & bowling session!)
- Mom (she kissed me as a birthday present!! YEYYY!!)
- Dad
- Aim
- Syed (who I just met on my birthday itself. He's cool!)
- Spidey (I appreciate you taking work off & even paying everything for me bro that day, I may have refused but that meant a lot to me)
- Hajah (I miss the woman, haven't seen her in 4 years. She was sick when she told Spidey to pass her wish to me. ='()
- Nikos(my boyfriend's lookalike XD) & 6 of the Company
- Cousin Lynn
- Cousin Puteri (her name means Princess!)
- Cupid
- Astro
- akiha91 (Akiha)
- jrock_gaze (huining)
- rinka88
- Relz
- Marco
- Samer (some random on Skype who just wished me 5 minutes ago)
- Sister Erika




I thank everyone.

From the bottom of my heart, this has been the best birthday ever, to hit 20. I have not celebrated my birthday so well in my whole life, last year had been a bit of a freaky trauma (that I still look out for) that had changed my perspective in many things. So I thank you, all, for remembering, for commemorating, for wishing me.
It is your wish, that is enough for me to know who are out there for me, & that I'm not totally alone.

To whoever I forgot to mention, I'm sorry, but I will add you to this list if I do!


I love you all.



Hopefully to get a better one when I hit 21 next year! That's when I'll truly be branded as an ADULT!
It also means a party is on the way!! WOOHOOO!!









I still have yet to figure out who posted me the dress & left me black roses yesterday. >o<

*breathes in*


I'm totally nettled right now, but I've been learning to bite my tongue, so I will.
Patience. Until I meet them face to face.
Then they'll get what they had called for.


Or maybe I'll chill in a few hours, who knows.
Never had been the type to stay miffed unless the person is continuously being unfair to me when it was never a fault of mine.




It is time for me to stop chasing people who push me away from their lives.
It's obviously a no go when all they do is think of themselves.


Don't say I never tried.





Better days, with or without. =)






Happy Thanksgiving to those who celebrate it, and Eid Mubarak to all.




.
Night.

Am supposed to write a serious post in Malay today but...........


Whoagagadagadadadaaaaaaaaaaaaaawoooowooooo!!! FISHEAD!!!


*headbangs to random music*


III ISHHHHH INEBRIATED!!!!!


*dances*


Damnnnnn NESLOOOO!


Ever feel like you're more than half sleepy but you can't sleep 'cos part of you is in wee hyperdom?

THAT.


I can't drink tea 'cos it'll keep me fueled the whole night & I want to sleep since I've been awake the past 16+hours straight, Milo works best but I have it everyday at home & being at a restaurant I wanted something different and since I hadn't ordered Neslo before, figured I'll try something NEW!!!

BIG MISTAKE.


BLEEEHSSS.



I haveee NOOOOOO ideaaaaaaaaaa how I can get this way with just a glass of coffee + chocolate drink, & it goes through my body & crashes it in 10 minutes flat after consumption. Hey, at least it doesn't affect my body like badbad alcohol does. Not that I know how alcohol tastes let alone what it does to my body. HAHA.





On a serious note, thank goodness I'm still able to think logically in this state, I need to find out why such common substances have a strong effect through my system. Different people have different systems & effects, it's wise to discover why as so to avoid these during inappropriate times.

*closes eyes*

At least I know I tried.

When I woke up just now, I felt like running out of the house, hitch a free taxi to the airport, smuggle myself across customs through the fruit cargo, get on a plane to Glasgow, smuggle myself out & walk miles to Motherwell on bare feet, even if they bleed. So I can be there.


But too bad, I'm no stunt expert and cheating on people in every way is a big no-no to my conscious.

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On this day of your life, Calyx, we believe God wants you to know ... that you are not to shut love out of your life by saying it is impossible to find and keep.
	The quickest way to find love is to give love. If you want it too badly, you will not find it. The most secure way to keep love is to give it space and care to grow. If you hold it too tightly, you will lose it.

Elder council day.
( In the Eyes of the Experienced )

Freak it, I'm uberly sober right now. 20 minutes ago I was all happy dorky & now I'm like in the WTF mode.


Honestly, don't EVER TRY to make me feel special when you use the same things on other people. Don't say things to me that you use on other people. Don't call me the same names as you use on everyone else if I was special to you.It's sick.


Thanks a lot. Because I try very hard to make everyone feel special in their own way, having their own names, their own characteristics that I cherish, but instead I get generalized.

THANKS AH.


I'm over prioritizing people. If that's how they want to treat me, as a generality, that's what they're going to get.


I get extremely exacerbated when people aren't loyal to me because I pour the same loyalty to them. Live & let live policy.



Freak it.
I feel like getting lied to all over again



& I freaking don't like people who say they're going to do something but don't?
Talk about dishonesty at it's greatest.



*breathes in*



Imma go out for a jog. It's probably going to kill me on an empty stomach, but hell I need a breather.

OOOOOOMNOMNOMNOMNONOMNOMNOM.

*nibblez on bread with margarine & blueberry jam*

:3




Am still hunggrrry.... & I can't SLEEP!
Damn you tea at 6pm!



Ah wellz!

Discovered that the part of the reason I don't gain much weight is that these days I can't tell the difference between a stomach ache & hunger pain.


( OMGH or WHAT? )